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Pillow Talk



I’m bored, my brain whispers.

Shut up, you.

I’m bored, it repeats. Go on reddit.

No. We’re trying this new thing where we just… drift off to sleep. Do it.


Come on! It’s supposed to be zen. We just clear all thoughts and fall asleep.

No. I have a better idea. Let’s dig up your most embarrassing memory.

Definitely not. The one with the…?

I know it’s around here somewhere…

Jaysus. Could you not? I can’t even glance sideways at that memory, let alone drag it out into the harsh glare of reminiscence!

Fine. What about past failures?

Veto. There are too many to choose from, honestly. Not sure I can cope with that right now. Don’t you have anything more upbeat in there?

Hmmm. How about… baseless terror?

How is that more upbeat?!

Okay, okay. Oooh, here’s a good one. Anxieties that will paralyze you with fear but then seem ridiculous in the cold light of day!

Like being crushed by a falling tree? Or being pushed in front of a train by a total stranger? Thanks, but no thanks.

Worst case scenarios?

Definitely a hard pass.

Deepest regrets?


Intrusive thoughts?


General feelings of worthlessness?


Chronic insecurities?



Let’s go on Reddit.



26 thoughts on “Pillow Talk

  1. Tossing and turning is so frustrating! Not to mention that you pay for it the next day. Reddit is a good choice for spending some remaining energetic brain gremlins that are preventing you from sleep. 😀

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  2. This sometimes happens to me. Thankfully not all of the time though. Mine is more a lets lay in the dark and stare at the ceiling whilst you get cramp in both your legs or something of that nature. Other times I can be out before I hit the pillow. I feel your annoyance… At least some of it.

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  3. I used to have a terrible time falling asleep, until I hit puberty, then I discovered if I just think of girls it switches my brain into some sort of primitive animal mode, I go right out within moments. But, doubt that will work for you.

    My wife has terrible insomnia, I’ve tried a few things to help her, firstly, there have been a number of studies that show that lighting tricks your brain into staying up. Low lighting is important (fewer bulbs, lower watt bulbs), and even more important is filtering out blue light, such as the light from a LCD/LED screen on a phone, tablet, TV, or computer display (the wavelengths of blue lighting can keep you up an extra 1-3 hours longer than you normally would stay awake). To filter out blue light, install f.lux for Windows, Twilight for Android, or turn on Night Shift for iOS devices, these programs will automatically warm the color temperature of the display as night falls so they don’t inhibit your natural sleep rhythm. I know it sounds a bit hokey, but good studies have been done and I found it really helped my wife. That and only using the bedroom for sleep, stay in other parts of the house until you are ready to sleep, don’t read, watch TV, or surf the Internet in bed, makes a big difference for training your body that the bed is for sleeping. I know, I’m probably missing the point of your post, but having seen how much my wife struggles with insomnia, I just thought I’d throw my two cents at ya 🙂

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    1. Hey, thanks! I’m terrible for surfing at night. Every so often I tell myself I’ll only use the bedroom for bed-related things, but it never lasts long because I lie there slowly spiraling into darker thoughts until I run to get my phone so I can distract myself with the mundanity of other people’s issues…

      I just got the Philips hue lights so I’ll see if I can set them up to do that colour temperature thing!

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